A woman either loves or hates, she knows no medium.

Moved.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 07:08:24 GMT

hey people, i 've moved to a new blog.
Link or visit my life

http://ikilledthescenelovers.tumblr.com

Plans planz plans.

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 08:17:24 GMT

I'm glad that i managed to pull through my chinese oral. All my friends know that i suck at chinese, although i did skipped quite a few words but i think i will be able to pass. Just now i had a great talk with my dad and sister, we started planning on travel plans and of course, my sweet 16 party. My dad suggested to book one level of his friend's pub or maybe the place my aunt brought me to see so that means, a pool party!!!!! My dad just called up the manager and tomorrow will be official launch for the bar at labrador. I guess i will have to wait for daddy to go down to check the prices for reservations and stuffs. So.......... who's willing to be my party planner for sammy's sweet 16? HAHAHA. So much to do yet so little time.

Unequal.

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 08:21:40 GMT

I've been so busy preparing for my exams and i dont have much time for my life right now. It has only been exams,home and me. Repeating every single day or should i just be straightforward, i currently dont have the time for sky and my girlfriends. In this 2 weeks, im hoping that i wont be having the same old fucking feeling of you guys drifting apart again. It sucks a whole lot, you should know that if someone close to me dont treat me like how they used to, my imagination will immediately go wild, and i meant negative thoughts. For now, its really hard for me to actually balance up my time for my love life, friendship and exams. Its way too hectic for me right now, trying my best to put back bits and pieces together. I've got to hang on till 9 oct, i'm one quarter through, three quarter to go. I'm so drained out right now.... so so drained.

To sky, i know that we arent able to spend much time together now but just dont let this affect our relationship alright?

Flashback of unfortunate events.

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 05:32:51 GMT

On friday, i met up with sky<3 and his classmates at georges to drink before heading home at in the morning.
Finally getting to meet lemon to have heart to heart talks after so long feels so great. I am a happy girl because i bought my stuffs :) Headed to town as usual, met faiz at ion and chilled at raffles place river side.
Need to smoke, study because my exams are tomorrow.

What is wrong with Lj?

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:16:50 GMT

I am fucking frustrated over live journal. I cant seem to get the codes and layouts placed correctly and now my insert bar for posting is missing. I cant even upload pictures. I hate using Lj right now. I hope everything tomorrow will be fixed so i can actually blog properly. Nbcb what kind of friendly blogging method is this?
Anyway, school was fun today. I know i know my exams are in 5 days time but i'm just way too tired to study right now. At least i made the effort of paying attention in class, guess that helps? Well i'm hitting the sheets soon, my nose and throat is giving me a massive sleeping/breathing problem. Sorry readers for this wordy post because i don't have the time to upload/take pictures due to school and busy schedules. I don't want to make this too wordy so i will blog again tomorrow if i've got time.

Flea titans.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 03:19:36 GMT

Yesterday was awesome because we managed to sell mostly all of our clothes etc. All of us were so excited when customers were browsing around our booth. Happy to say, all of us managed to get good buys there. Although i was sick, managed to pull through the day. Gosh, my nose is running like a water pipe so i didnt attend school today till i received a phone call at about 8+ that my good friend mir had left us. I woke up because i was way shocked. Tears started to roll down......

To my dearest friend mir, rest in peace. We love you and will miss you. I remember the times when we would skip school, sabby and i will always come over to your house to chill, smoke and our breakfast will be Macdonalds. We used tickle you to wake you up to entertain us. All of us used to lepak together, enjoy together and have heart to heart talks but now i guess non of that can happen. Although you are not with us physically, we will always be there for you.
After this incident, i've learnt that we ought to live life to the fullest. No matter how much ups or downs, face it because this is fucking reality and this is what i always tell myself.

P.S: Enjoy and treasure your life while you still can.
OMG kanye west is such a fucker. How can you embarrassed taylor swift in front of the whole crowd? Gonna continue watching VMA and study.

Selamat Hari Raya.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 09:38:08 GMT

Last night was a fine night. Sky<3 and I went to bugis to have food feast which is steamboat. That was the happiest meal of the week but also very fulling. He had to work the next day so he went home while I met syidah at cine with her friend. It was a last minute plan but i'm glad i manage to do some catching up with her. So it was cine>taka>wisma>taka>wisma>ion before heading home early and being a good girl again. My plans for drinking was screwed up again and i hope it wouldnt be next week. 8 more days to my EOY exams. I smell stress........ but wait! Partying is on my wayyyyy. I'm thinking of 9 oct...... clubbing, drinking, late night outs, extreme L4D marathon, chilling, sky's and i awesome birthday party Ahhhhhhhh...........
Well okay, thinking way too much, study first and all will happen soon.

P.S: 6 Hours and 30 minutes to my 1 year anniversary with sky. We are then officially together for a year. Its been a wild year together. I love you sayang although we cant celebrate tmr we shall celebrate it on saturday and hope that this time you wouldnt have to work :)

Hate or love the word "Change"?

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 13:04:05 GMT

I remember perspiring like a mad cow in the morning as louisa and I were intensively playing badminton. Finally got some exercise and i am glad that i manage to stick to 1 meal per day and drinking lots of water but sadly, i've been smoking more than usual just to kill my appetite. I guess im otw to being another samantha for now, studying and only going out on weekends. 10 more days till my EOY exams, oh god i have to pass these fucking time. Although sky and i are in the same school, we dont see each other in school sometimes maybe just a glance and that have already been happening for like 4-5 days which make me miss him. But i will be able to meet him tmr and hope that he doesnt have to work and hopefully accompany me to go drinking and chill out on the weekends. Well i have to wait for my mom to reach home and bathe before i can actually smoke before sleeping.

3 more days to my 1 year anniversary with sky sayang :)
Able to meet cousins on sundayyy.
Do come down to flea titans on mon and visit my best friends and i booth. We will be selling clothes from topshop,F21,H&M and everything you can name.

Shall blog tmr goodnight.

Shaking on a rock.

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 08:22:48 GMT

School was alright but i dont know why i am so exhausted for the past few days till i ended up sleeping, practically all the lessons when i'm suppose to be paying attention? EOY exams are scary, i cant afford to fail and retain again or else i would quit school and study private already. Can you imagine for the past few days, i've been watching taiwan dramas till late night when im only left with 12 fucking days till my exams? I better slap myself till i wake up before its too late. I want 9 october to come so that i can partay. I got so many plans/things to do which i didnt do it last year. I keep telling myself to study hard now and then good things would arrive, getting whatever i want or need. Sammy, just wait and the day will come......
I'm so glad that my menses have finally stop. Okay i better go study.

Overspending.

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 13:50:19 GMT

Omg, sky<3 just called me saying that he actually blasted his bill for his master card. Im feeling kinda guilty because he pays for me for almost everything. I'm so tempted to do online shopping. Really wanted to get the topshop crop top, Wetseal floral dress, runway bandits romper and the ripped leggings but i cant spend too much. I'm still considering if i should get one of them but dad and sky have been saying that im spending money like water. Money never fails to cause so many problems in people's life. Gonna go talk to sky before i sleep.

Not much of a choice.

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 12:46:56 GMT

I DREAD GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW BUT I DONT HAVE A CHOICE BECAUSE OF EXAMS.
ANDDDDDDDD........... BLOGSHOP OWNERS TAKES SUCHA LONG TIME TO RESPOND SO FUCKING IRRITATING.

Lets see who's the real guitar hero.

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 18:01:11 GMT

On friday, i went out with my girls to seletar country club and it was a blast. We had so much fun laughing and talking. And yesterday, i went out with my girls again and i finally met sky after 4 days. Missed him so much. We went to cineleisure to play guitar heroes and it was awesome. I admit i got thrashed by Lx and it suck ballz because my score is like half of his, so unfair. Decided to be a good girl by going home early as sayang had to work later at 3am so we didnt really spend much time with each other. But overall, i had a fun time with girlfriends and boyfriend. I'm here blogging and watching forgetting sarah marshall. I'm bored to death and im feeling so frustrated and fucked up because i got nothing to do. I swear it sucks being home early on a saturday night. Dewi suggested me to sleep to kill time but i dont feel like sleeping :(
Remaining pictures up on facebook.
I guess i shall wait till sky wakes up.....

P.S. EOY exams is in 2 weeks time kill me please because i haven really study yet.

This is call " Daddy's love"

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 09:57:55 GMT

I'm content and happy because because because daddy finally brought me out after being stuck at home for 2 days and..........

1. Daddy finally got me my tote bag
2. He even got me a pair of "vintage" looking shoes which absolutely matches my bag perfectly.
3. He bought me to eat my favorite beef noodles.
4. Daddy is so sweet to get me a packet of cigarettes (Insert hearts to him)

I really appreciates when my daddy gets me whatever i want but i am jealous because he is going to get the new 3G iphone. My dad says i can only change to my blackberry in Nov and a laptop when there is a IT sale again? The day will come it definetely will. After eating the pills prescribed by the gyne, she says that i was suppose to have heavy menses flow after finishing everything and it suck big time. Okay i'm going to go smoke now and just relax at home bye.

P.S : I miss sky.

You can never predict the future.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 12:38:07 GMT

I just received news from Sabrina saying that my good friend Mir is currently admitted to a hospital because he is unwell and it seems like he doesnt have much time left. We are all so worried for him and obviously would want him to get well soon. Oh god, how i wish a miracle would happen now by healing him. All of us would want to see the past mir, oh so happy lively cheerful dude. So get well soon.

Anyway, I'm stuck at home for the 2nd day and it suck for not having plans to get out of the house and not able to focus studying.

Things to do:

1. Visit Mir either tomorrow or friday afternoon.
2. Get the black patent gold chained tote bag.
3. Shopping with mama either tmr or friday.
4. Waiting for my mail to arrive by friday.
5. Get a new packet of cigarettes.
6. Cut my hair.
7. Spend quality time with sky and girlfriends.

I'm gonna go watch gong zhu xiao mei and catch up with my studies before sleeping.

P.S : Sayang, wake up call me.

Shopaholic girlz.

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 04:22:04 GMT

Would any kind soul get me all of this pleaseeeeeeee from http://shopnastygirl.com

Stud love zip dress

Stylestalker bikini cutout dress

Maria floral romper

jeffrey campbell posh studded platforms

I saw another black crochet romper and its so pretty. G-O-S-H!
I'm gonna go ask mommy if i can get both rompers and maybe a pair of heels from F21(cross my fingers)
Gonna go shopping this friday i suppose and meet sky and girlfriends :) Lovely plan.

Sniffing all over again.

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 08:05:55 GMT

Last night i must not consider as awesome but just an ordinary saturday. Met Sky<3 and Lx in the afternoon and headed to alvin's friend's mansion before leaving to lemonore<3 house alone. We headed to Wisma>taka>FEP to have dinner with faiz and his friends >Paragon>Bugis before cabbing over to amanda's house to settle some stuff with sky. Went over to sky's love place at 1am. Hope you will keep to your promises on what we talked last night alright? I'll always love you sky hunnybunny :)
Okay i'm going to bed right now, way to tired to do anything. Eyes closing, hoping for tmr to be a good day.

P.s: Finally my september holidays have arrived, gotta balance enjoying and studies :)
Good luck to lemonore,lene,izzy for your N's :) Love ya.

Chiity Chattty chat chat.

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 15:42:20 GMT

My day was spent sleeping at home and with trishy trish(L) at town. We seriously did catch up so much on our lifes after not seeing each other for more than a year i supposed. In the night, we headed to fareast to catch faceoff performing, trishy's guy playing. Bumped into quite a few people. Hang out at wheelock with trish and titus before heading home.

I dont know what the fuck is wrong with people this days, its so weird and scary.
I wont be able to meet sky for a few days and i guess this would suck even more. And see, i told ya something bad is going to happen and it actually did, i guess my senses are correct this time round.

KILL AND DIE TILL YOU FUCKING BLEED!

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 15:09:57 GMT

I dont know if im hallucinating, dreaming, having bad thoughts or is it just reality to actually agree that.....
i'm currently having a fucked up life! So let me think hmmmm.....

My menses explosion thus suffering from cramps first time in 3 years of menses life.
I am left with 25 days before my EOY exams starts.
My eyes are all so red and sored after 3Hrs straight playing of L4D.
I feel guilty for not studying enough.
A random feeling that bad things will keep happening to me for the next whole week.
Fucking worried because my bf is clubbing tmr.
I am hungry but im only sticking to 1 meal per day because of dieting.
I have to wait till 9th oct to enjoy/party.
Temptation to party/drink/late night outs but im trying to change.
Sky and I have not been spending enough 1-1 time.
I've got no books to read anymore.
Not to shop so much because my parents and sky will get pissed.
My cramps are hurting even more right now as i am blogging.
I miss sky yet we cant get to meet.
I want to meet my girlfriends but all of us are busy.
My eyes are closing but i must not sleep for the sake of talking to sky on the phone.
I really got a fucking bad feeling that something would go wrong tmr.
I've smoked so much more than usual.
I am going to die soon because i've got slight fever, flu and red watery eyes now.
No one to hug me, kiss me and say goodnight to me for tonight's sleep.
I am having highly extremely dangerous fucking bad mood swings, so dont provoke me.
A tiny pimple just popped out Holy mama fucking shitz cow.

I guess that really explains how fucked up i feel bye.

Mega Hardcore doings.

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 07:51:16 GMT

Pictures from yesterday. Recently my life revolves around sky,girlfriends town and school thats all. I've decided to focus on my studies now because i left with 27 days to study for my end of year exams. I need motivation to study. I should study hard and play hard as well, that should do the trick. Many things have happened for the past few months, we are all so busy with our own stuff and i hope my girlfriends and i can do something fun when we are free :) Okay i'm going to go smoke, study and call sky before i sleep.

I love last night although it was a short night with sky love. You hugged me so tightly immediately after you saw me. Lovely heart to heart talks and before we went off, you kissed my forehead and my lips uncountable times and you hugged me like my world only revolves around you.

Goodnight people.

Xoxo,
Sammy.

So annoying but happy teachers day.

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:51:55 GMT

Its so annoying having my parents calling me every single second, bf is out clubbing tonight. So much on my mind like what is he fucking doing, why cant my parents just give me a break, its not like im not too old to think. Well, its just damn annoying when everything is happening all at the same time. It sucks having to go through this shit now, arrgggggggggg! Anyway, after school, i headed to tampines starbucks to meet izabella to study before going to her place. Thats about it so bye.

Bay the beatz.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 07:10:12 GMT

My saturday was spent with sky and my bestest girlfriends lemonore lene and izabella. I had an awesome time spent with sky on friday and sat. Had dinner before sky<3 went off to Xavier's place and we headed to baybeatz, accompanying lemon to find faiz. Saw quite a lot of familiar faces. Chillxz and talk till we were all tired before going home, first time since months since i last went home early okay reaching home at 12.30am is considered early for me.
I doubt i can make it for tomorrow's event at Play although i really feel like going :( Its gonna be a mundane monday night for me i suppose.

P.S I dont know if i should trust you again because i have seriously been through so much yet i dont want fucking shit to happen again.

Insufficient time.

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 11:15:36 GMT

10 Things to do

1. Find time to talk to sky and girlfriends.
2. Read finish Sophie Kinsella book : Shopaholic Takes Manhattan.
3. Have my dinner.
4. Study.
5. Lose weight again.
6. Fashion Emergency.
7. Make time for sky and girlfriends.
8. Continue thinking of my life, what i have to change.
9. Online browsing shopping.
10. Hit the sheets and get my beauty sleep.

Finally.............

I cant wait for friday and saturday :) yippeeeeeeeee!

Only time matters.

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 11:51:57 GMT

Monday starts all over again, boring old monday with fucking moody swings. I finally realised that when you are studying, time actually flies but when you arent, time seems to be getting slower. I need to head back down to parkway popular tomorrow to buy some more stuffs for school. Time to smoke, talk to sky love and get my beauty sleep. Shall blog again tmr although my blog is so mundane but i promise that more pictures would be posted.

Spicing everything up.

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 09:49:20 GMT

My 11th month anniversary and saturday was enjoyable. Had an awesome time catching up with lemonore and lene sweethearts. Lene had to go so lemon,faiz and i headed over to simpang to meet sky love and to have delicious sambal stingray etc.
Sammy is happy because she has a new pair of neon/hot pink aviators to be added in her sunglasses collection.
Back to school tomorrow and i hope things would turn out fine.
I cant possibly think so much for friends who treats me like shit, i rather spend time studying in school.

Starting anew goody or baddy?

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 12:19:08 GMT

Everything is pretty calm now and its such a good thing that we actually talk things out, about our likes and dislikes of each other's attitude etc. Now we know what we gotta change in ourselves and to improve our relationship. I dont know why but im going back to the days when i was a ultimate huge fan of Good charlotte. I'm listening to their songs and thinking back of the times when i was at their concert, i will never forget that day. I hope that tomorrow and sat would be awesome shit. I miss lemon and lene so much, miserable things have happened between all of us so its time to catch up bitches.

Just in advance before i hit the books, Happy 11th month to sky love.